Monday, February 22, 2010

MS and another year

Well, this is turning out to be the first big exacerbation of the year, and hopefully the last. I fell yesterday. Fortunately it wasn't a bad fall.  Today I'm very shaky and my hand aren't working right. Which means this blog will be pretty short. I'm using the drops for the Optic Neuritis faithfully twice a day. I've noticed a little bit of color loss in that eye, but I know it will come back.

I'm trying to keep my spirits up because I know that moping and pity parties make the MS stronger and doesn't do me any good.  I have to keep moving forward no matter what MS throws at me and I will. I'll keep taking things one moment at a time knowing that this too will pass and I'll come out the other side even stronger. Although at times I wonder just how strong I'm supposed to be? I never aspired to be Wonder Woman even as a small child.  Yet at times that exactly who I think I'm supposed to be.

So, I cling to my faith. Knowing that God has a reason for allowing this. That this experience is simply another thread in the tapestry of my life. HE knows what the finished tapestry will look like, I don't. It's as if I'm looking at the bottom of the tapestry and all I see are loose threads hanging down and a design that makes no sense. Yet, HE see the top and the beautiful picture it is becoming.

3 comments:

Jo Ann Ginkus Haskell said...

although we do not know each other personally I feel I do know you. I find your strength and faith a source of comfort for myself. Know that you are not alone with the MS and you are not alone on His path. All the best,
Jo

MSFighter2009 said...

I fell today as well. Went down about 7 steps without control. I just sat there and cried. But, I HAD to get up! I'm not going to let this thing win. .... Who knows.. maybe I just had slippery socks on! LOL... hang in there... you are not alone!

Kimberly said...

Oh my gosh! I hope you didn't hurt yourself. Glad to hear you have such a positive attitude. Keep on fighting!